Ugh, the last two days can only be described as a virus induced hell. To quote cochrance, "Being sick sucks!" I've been really lucky. Up until Sunday (and excusing the rather long expanse I missed while in recovery from the hospital) I haven't called in sick from work in years. Well the time came, and boy did it hit me with a vengeance. I can't remember the last time I really had to lay in bed because I didn't have the strength to get up. Today is looking good so far. I feel nearly at 75% now so hopefully I can make it down to the store and buy some food since it appears that EVERYTHING is gone! Then I gotta work on the laundry. Seems every time I turn around it has piled up all over my room and bathroom. Looks like my work is cut out for me.

Current Mood: sick

A little over a week ago a good friend of mine suggested that I read over a website. After reading it and several others which were linked there, I discovered that I suffer from codependancy. I look back on the 28 years that I have been alive and as far back as I can remember the symptoms of codependancy have ruled just about every emotional response I've ever had. I rushed down to the local bookstore and picked up one of the suggested books that I'd found on one of the many sites and started reading.. and reading.

After a few chapters I started to feel my mind opening up and seeing the world in a completely different way. The painful relationships I've had and the depression I've always felt were comming directly from this problem. The last half of the book have serveral methods to help in the recovery process and I quickly began to read them all. After a few days of confusion and disorientation it almost felt like a light from heaven opened up and struck me in the head. The corners of my mouth started to turn upwards on their own and all the problems I always seemed to find every day seemed to be scurrying away.

Each step seems to bring forth a newly evolved me.. and I'm happy to finally be able to focus on me.. rather than trying to solve the rest of the worlds troubles.

-Lissa v2.0

Current Mood: indescribable

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Hmmm.. now I remember all those late nights I used to stay up playing on WNOHGB until the sun comes up. I guess I had more time back then cause it's really wearing me out now. I'm going to have to learn to ration myself :p Well all the RP getting Ssestia back into Starfleet is complete, now she's just waiting to be assigned to a new ship.

As for me in the real world, the last few days have been really stressful. I had a friend with a new friend of mine and it's bothering me more than it probably should. And like with most fights it started over something dumb and kept going cause one of us wouldn't just drop it. Well hopefully we'll both feel normal again after a couple days off from talking.

- L

Current Mood: groggy

The time has come! The TP to bring Ssestia back into reality started tonight and I got to finally man a console after nearly a year of being away. We hit a little snag playing it out so we had to pause till morning but I'm still having a blast being back in the game again. Although I realize I'm pretty rusty on all the commands. Guess it's a good thing we aren't going into battle :p

So many people have sent me pages telling me how good it was to see me again, and I can't explain how happy it makes me feel to know I have so many friends even after so long of being gone. You all better be prepared, Ssestia's will be roaring to go when she's back there with the rest of you!

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Radio Free WNOHGB

Normally I would consider myself a pretty patient person. But.. now that I've had a little taste of being back online I'm finding it very hard to wait for Ssestia to be back in action. Which kind of makes me snicker to think about it. I remember the long nights that there were three of us sitting around on an empty bridge of a ship for hours on end just doing nothing, let alone rp'ing with each other. Now I'm just itching to jump right back in there. I'm hoping that my extended absense will provide me with plenty of rp energy and I can spread it around and keep everyone going. Its a good idea anyways.

However, I know there are plenty of things that have to be done to bring Ssestia back from the void and the wait will be worth it in the end.

Now if only I could work out this stiff pain in my neck...

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Silence.. mmmmm

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Current Mood: flirty

I hurt my neck yesterday.. just simply bent down and pain shot through my neck and shoulder. Thought I had just turned or slept wrong on it. This morning I wake up and although it has dulled some, it has spread and now I need a pillow behind my head when I'm sitting in my computer chair. I suppose the nearly 29 years it starting to catch up with me. Of course I'm sure it didn't help to sit here in front of the computer till 3am last night.

Oh the anticipation of getting Ssestia back in WNOHGB is starting to kill me. Just squirming here in my chair to get in there start rp'ing out the story of why she's gone, kinda like a soap opera when they bring someone back from the dead. It should be loads of fun when we get it all hammered out.

-L

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: Radio Free WNOHGB

Oh just jumping for joy. Its funny how playing a text based game can invoke so many emotional responses. Its so good to be interacting with many of my online friends from WNOHGB and being welcomed back like they all have. To all my friends out there, I thought of you the whole time I was gone and missed you so much, I'm so glad that most of you are still around and remember little ole me :)

Cochrane sent me a great idea for how to bring Ssestia back from the idledeath, and has me all giddy to jump into the middle of it. I guess I didn't relaize how much I missed rp'ing. Now I'm just dying to get right to it :)

Ahh the feeling of life is just pouring back into me. I got to go outside for a good while today since it was warm and finally off all these damn IV's. Time to fire up the hottub :)

Lissa

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: The Cochrane Happy Dance (DDR Mix)

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Current Mood: mischievous